I'm a 25 year old male currently working on my masters degree in NYS. My undergrad/certification is in English 7-12. I am absolutely terrified to get a full-time teaching position because I'm afraid I'm totally going to fail! I've been subbing now since Nov. 2016 for an amazing district and all the teachers that know me in the district refer to me as an "excellent sub" or they tell me right out they're requesting me as their substitute because "I'm so good." I guess I can't see what it is I'm so good at because I just have so many doubts about myself and what I'm capable of. My student teaching experience went really, really, really well, but I chalk that up to the fact that the majority of the material I utilized was handed to me by my cooperating teacher(s). My supervisor that observed me during my student teaching called me "superb" and referred to my instruction as stellar. Not sure why I'm so scared, but when the time comes for me to teach English full-time I just feel like I'm going to fail and receive "ineffective" observations from my administrators. That's by far my worst fear! Also, when I do get my first full-time job, how will I know where to begin? How will I know what to plan, or even what to teach?! Good God I'm a nervous wreck!