My medical leave starts right after spring break...

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  1. LittleShakespeare

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    I honestly never thought I would be writing this post, especially when I agreed multiple times to stick it out. I'm so sorry for all the trouble I have put you all through. I really should have listened.

    It's state test week, and I had a complete, total breakdown yesterday. Stopped breathing and collapsed. The mere idea of coming back after spring break to teach these kids (who have gotten worse and worse) really got to me.

    Long story short: I'm going on medical leave, and my benefits coordinator mentioned that I won't have to return till September, but I will resign before then. My last day of work is April 29th, the day we return from spring break.

    I hate myself for not being a viking and sticking it out, but I honestly am at my wit's end. It's just a job. And to be honest, I have another customer service job opportunity that begins on May 1st. I took this as a sign from God. I don't care if this ruins my resume anymore. I'm thinking of going back to school for library science anyway.

    Thank you so much for being so patient with me, everyone. I'm seeing my doctor tomorrow to submit the paperwork, and then it's over. :(
     
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    You must be careful. There may be an issue with you working another job while on medical leave.

    Good luck.
     
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    Thank you so much, honey. I actually have to look into it, but you’re right. I can totally just relax and not work for now. I think that’s what I need for a while.
     
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    You have to take care of yourself first. Your health is more important than anything else. You learned something important about your limits. I wish you the best in your recovery. Take care.
     
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    Is it paid medical leave? On your resume, put you worked there the whole school year because technically you are still employed with them. You are not obligated to disclose your short leave on a job interview.
    Just fyi, to be a school librarian you need to have taught for a certain number of years. It varies per state.
     
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    I fully understand you leaving. Education system is getting worse by the minute. I see it by my teaching experience, watching the news, reading posts on here, and speaking with teachers. I would still be teaching if school was like it used to be -back when teachers were respected, back when students and parents did not run the school
     
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    Thank you so much, dear. Yes, it is a paid medical leave. I feel so guilty. I wanted to stick it out till June, but I think I reached my breaking point. :( I've been miserable all weekend about what I've done.

    I would love to be an academic librarian or possibly work in editing/publishing. I'm thinking of going back to school soon, so there is a silver lining. :)
     
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    Please stop feeling guilty. You can't be a martyr in a system that is broken.
    Take as many sick days between now and April 29th. Good for you for taking medical leave. Ask HR or the union how it works regarding beginning a new job May 1st while on paid medical leave. Maybe you can push your start date at your new job back so you take some time to recover.
    If you return to being a librarian in the future and are considering K-12, please consider working at an Independent school in a good neighborhood. Several veteran teachers and professors who were former teachers gave me this advice. I can't believe I stuck it out in public schools for so long but I am so glad I made the switch in to an Independent school - even if it was after taking off almost a decade to do something else not K-12 related. I used to be where you are today.

    Good luck. I promise you will feel better once you leave the toxic environment.:love:
     
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    You made me tear up. Thank you so much. This has been so difficult, but I truly can’t take it anymore. I hope the guilt will subside. I’m actually going to take an intensive therapy program on my leave. I feel like there’s so much I need to process and talk about with a therapist.

    My last day is actually April 18th, this Thursday. Then spring break starts, and we’re supposed to come back on April 29th. I took a sick day on April 29th, so my leave technically starts on April 18th. Four more days.

    I asked my benefits coordinator, and she said I can work part-time while I’m leave. I was thinking of taking this desk job offered to me by a family friend, so long as my hours don’t exceed 25.

    I don’t want to work in schools anymore, to be honest. I’d love to try my hand at publishing/editing, or even perhaps work as a research/archival librarian. My love for literature can definitely be used in some other capacity.

    Please keep me in your prayers, everybody. I’m hoping the tears stop soon. It’s been a really difficult journey. I totally had it when my VP came into my classroom and started yelling at me and belittling me sarcastically in front of my kids.
     
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    Happy to hear you can work a part-time job unrelated to teaching. I know the ability to do that hinges on the policies at the workplace.
     
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    Thank you for letting me know! I definitely had to check first. :D
     
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    Would it be possible for you to take tomorrow and Thursday off by calling in sick? That way you can start today? if you have the sick days, do it. Who cares what the VP will think? Eff the VP.
    *hugs*
     
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    I called in sick yesterday, only because my new medication makes me feel so groggy and exhausted. Now I don't have anymore sick days. :( That's why I had to come into work this week. Tomorrow is my last day. I made it this far. :heart:

    Thanks for all your love and support, everybody. I'm starting an intensive therapy program on Monday, and I'm actually going to my college career center to get some ideas on publishing and editing careers. :)
     
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    I left teaching and now working as a writer,editor,interviewer. It's a tough industry to break into.
     
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    You're all done! Woo hoo!
     
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    I’d love to talk with you more about switching into this field! :heart:
     
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    I’m so happy, but somehow sad too. My therapist told me it’s normal to mourn this loss, but I’m going to work really hard at getting better and finding my passion.

    You guys, thank you so very much. I really am sorry for all the turmoil. I honestly don’t have many teacher friends, so they don’t understand what we go through. That’s why I always came here for advice. I wanted to believe that staying till June meant that I was a good person that is not a quitter, but last week, I had a blackout panic attack after my boss chastised me in front of my own kids. I just couldn’t take it anymore. Life is way too short to be spending every day miserable. I knew something was wrong when I got into a car accident last month. When that car hit me, the first thought that came to my mind was this: “YAY! I don’t have to go to work tomorrow!” :(

    The road to recovery begins now. I’m going to miss my kids (the nice ones), but I hope they’ll be okay.
     
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    I wish you the best of luck with your future endeavors. Please stay in touch with us. We care about you.
     
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    Thank you so much, my dear friends! It’s been about a month, and I cannot begin to tell you how much my mental health has improved. I. Am. HAPPY! I wake up every morning feeling so happy to be alive. I’m not crying myself to sleep anymore! I’m not having panic attacks anymore. At last, I am free.

    I truly didn’t realize how much the job was killing me until I left. I will never EVER go back there again. I was supposed to go back after spring break to turn in my keys and laptop, but my best friend is actually going for me. I want nothing more to do with that prison and sad excuse for a school. :(

    You saved my life. Thank you so much for everything, all. I am eternally in your debt for always guiding me. :) :heart:
     
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    I’m so glad to hear that you are doing better! I told you that your mental health would improve.

    And I’m elated you finally realized how toxic and disgusting your previous school was. It will implode without you.
     
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